Only Him

I have been confused, indifferent, and searching and trying to explain to others the pains that are apart of the world we live in. A family that I know, who has rose above insurmountable trails already, has been hit hard with some crippling news about the health of their son. A boy I got to get a glimpse of last year as I got to mentor him and 3 of his friends in my office a few times a month throughout the school year.

I am not here to share his story, I am not here to share their story, these things will and have been done. I am here right now to look into the broken world in which we live and to hope to see the Only One who can make sense of it all. The brokenness of this family, the attacks all around the world shaking everyone, the daily struggles we face as parents, students, children, friends, all of it can only make sense through Him.

I recently was a part of a bible study with a group of college students this week and at one point we discussed how we react to the strong Christians around us and in the public eye when they fail. Many times the failures of our brothers and sisters erase all that they have done to glorify God in our eyes. This is heavy on my heart to see and know this. Last time I picked up scripture and studied the life of my Savior I am pretty sure he made it clear that we can do nothing without him. We are hopeless, in a broken world full of sin, death, cancer, disease, war, hate, loneliness, greed, and so much more evil. We are and have nothing without him.

I know the struggles my family faces and at times the seem so dismal compared to our friends struggling life, for hope, for a miracle. The blessing in life is we already have the miracle of Christ. The miracle of salvation. This, at times, can be hard to remember. We don’t want to be on this earth without the ones we love. We don’t want to experience new adventures without them by our sides. I can not begin to imagine the pain and heartache of loosing my spouse or my daughters. I have been blessed beyond belief in the ways my life has unfolded. I sit and reflect what would I do if I was faced with such hardship. I can’t speculate or tell you what I would do. I can only hold on to what I know is true and hope and pray that if a time comes where my world shatters that I know these things.

What I know is true is Jesus Christ loves me with all of his heart in a way that only he can love. I know that I will never fully understand the reasons behind why things happen in this world aside from we are a broken world. I do not know the grand picture of what my life will be on earth and what God’s plan for me is. I know that there is hope of a future that will be something that I will never be able to imagine. It will be more amazing than my wedding day, honeymoon, or the two days that I became a father to my girls. I know that that hope and that future is not here on earth. God is good. He is the Only One.

My hope is that we can cling to these truths as we walk and live in this world around us. That we can know these truths when we are faced with adversity, when we are so disheveled that we can no longer move, when we are completely and utterly broken, that we cling to our Savior. That we can know Him as He knows us. That we can allow him to carry us, nurture us, and guide us to the hope we have in him.